Six Years

There you were safe in my place
Four a.m. and storming outside
Another night just you and I
Together passing that time goodbye

Time lived not past that night
Joy lost because I wasn’t right

In my mind, he was always there
Even though he was never there
Your heart was free; I missed my chance
Iced by a freeze known to me as trust

I should have opened first
I should have spoken my mind
Gone you are with that other guy
Drowning, I am, in foolish pride

It was time now lost to kiss you right
I mistook your insecurities for a fleeing heart
I couldn’t move past what I thought was wrong
Couldn’t see that your desires were true

Time lived not past that night
Joy lost because I wasn’t right

Still, I think of you to this day
Through my fingers, I watched you slip away
Still, I wish you well the times I pray
And write these words I never could say

I should have opened first
I should have spoken my mind
Gone you are with that other guy
Drowning I am, in foolish pride

So I’m sorry, sorry for myself
I’m sorry, I know what I lost
I’m sorry, sorry to you too
Sorry for what I couldn’t do
Sorry I was grounded in my ways
Sorry I lost with you all of these days