This Chance Circumstance

An encounter destined to bring an enormous wave of emotion.
Will this destroy me? 
Or will this make me stronger?
Might I helplessly break down? 
Or might I become voiceless?
Will all of this hard work pay off? 
Or will these sessions go for naught?

An encounter destined to bring an enormous wave of emotion.
Will this destroy me? 
Or will this make me stronger?
Might I helplessly bre   down? 
Or might I become voiceless?
Will all of this hard work pay off? 
Or will these sessions go for naught?
Might my heart betray me and pound wildly out of control.
Or might I instead be indifferent to all that was left unsaid?
This chance circumstance.

Maybe tomorrow? Perhaps next month? A year from now?  Possibly in a different life altogether?

What will we do? 
What will we say?

An encounter destined to bring a enormous wave of emotion
Will my eyes water over regardless of these precautions that I have put into place?
Or will I stand rigid, remain resolute to myself, and offer nothing?
Might I allow myself to see the situation truly and fully for what it is? 
Or might I let allow these preconceived notions of misguided truths to interfere? 
Will I stand rigid, remain resolute, and put up a front like none of this ever mattered?
Or will this masquerade melt and these facades come crumbling down? 
Might I be secure enough to present a warm smile, offer a kind word, and move forth gracefully?
Or might I permit these once thought to be buried feelings of betrayal to pierce the surface?

This chance circumstance.....

Maybe tomorrow? Perhaps next month? 
A year from now?  Possibly in a time not yet determined?
What will we do? 
What will we say?

This is about the anticipation, the fear, the wonderment, and all of the other emotions one feels when one imagines what will happen when you run into an ex for the first after your breakup. Sometimes, due to ot the situation, you might see that person constantly after the breakup (through work, a common group of friends, etc.) whether you want to or not. But sometimes, you might never see that person again unless some sort of chance circumstance finds the two of you at the same place at the same time. You can play run through the scenario in your head hundreds of times, but you won't truly know what you will do until that situation presents itself.

Written in 2011

Copyright, The Poetry of Bryan Buser