Recondition
To receive love, you must first know how to give love.
Wish not that the right person would come to you.
Wish, instead, that your heart will be ready when they finally do.
Looking for more opportunities to showcase my affections and passions and for fewer ways to hide them away.
Reciprocating kind words and good deeds even when it’s been my nature for so long just to remain quiet.
Empathizing with others; recalling the most honest feelings associated with heartache, loss, and pain.
With this self-pity and cowardice pushed to the edge, the time is now to give this my complete dedication.
Though this derailment has lasted for a decade, I can still picture the wholeness of these individual parts.
Reconditioning this body to touch.
Reconditioning this mind to trust.
Reconditioning this soul to believe.
Reconditioning this heart to love once again.
Pushing past this self-defined comfort zone, allowing less guardedness when new chances seek me out.
Trusting that I will be able to handle the ups and downs that accompany each new experience.
Wishing and waiting for an existence that cannot possibly exist if I’m unwilling to make life-altering changes.
Reconditioning this heart so that these fires caused by feelings of betrayal and anger are quelled forever.
Reconditioning this mind, body, and soul so that they understand, accept, and love wholeheartedly.
Better readying myself to be a person who is capable of loving another until the end of time.
This life might be one thousand miles away, or it may be directly in front of me.
It is an existence that I will never find if I continue to live so blindly.
Remembering what it feels like to expose myself to heartache and heartbreak.
Recalling the misery associated with a significant loss so that those generated feelings can once again be real.
Involving others in my life, sharing with them all of me, allowing them to rejoice in my good fortunes.
Involving others in my life, allowing them to weep with my sadness.
Involving others, imploring them to be active participants in this incredible journey.
Letting a hand touch my shoulder when I am hurting, allowing a hug when one is offered.
Allowing the company and comfort of another to divide up these prolonged periods of isolation.
Reconditioning this body to touch.
Reconditioning this mind to trust.
Reconditioning this soul to believe.
Reconditioning this heart to love once again.
The days of entering into relationships based on nothing more than a simple fondness are over
The times for these vacated emotional connections have come to an end.
The assurance of a risk-free relationship is no longer.
It’s time, once again, to reveal my vulnerabilities to the people who matter the most.
It’s time, once again, to allow the words and actions of another to penetrate my guarded heart.
To receive love, you must first know how to give love.
Wish not that the right person would come to you.
Wish, instead, that your heart will be ready when they finally do.
Bettering yourself.
Written in 2013
Copyright, The Poetry of Bryan Buser