One Last Dream
I awaken…
I’m all alone, sprawled across my bed
I look for you, but you’re not there; you’re only in my dreams
A sigh…
Thoughts of what I miss, I grieve through my loss
A tear slides down my cheek as I remember all we had
Feelings…
Of love long lost, memories flood my body
An image so vivid, but still just a picture in my mind
But in this dream
You’re not with me
In this dream
I’m the only one alone
In this dream
You smile and seem so real, yet I’m standing all alone
Dreams of you
Walking next to me each day for eternity
Dreams of you
Standing by my side
Dreams of you
Will you give me your heart?
Dreams of you
That’s all they are; reality has passed me by
But in this dream
You’re not with me
In this dream
I’m the only one alone
In this dream
You smile and seem so real, and I’m standing all alone
Gone you are
Gone from my life, it’s something I must accept
Gone you are
But this one last dream, another chance to say good-bye
This last encounter
Before I wake, we’re standing face to face
One last talk
It’s what you say that I’ll carry on with me
One last chance
A final glimpse of your sweet face
One last embrace
I want to hold you close, but I know it’s not my place
A smile
So adored, my heart still skips a beat
But in this dream
You’re not with me
In this dream
I’m the only one alone
In this dream
You smile and seem so real, and I’m standing all alone
A look…
Into my eyes, you can still read my every thought
A survey…
Of my lost face, you can tell things just aren’t right
A gentle touch…
Fingers locked send quivers down my spine
A light pat…
On my back, that tells me it will all be okay
You start again
To drift away
I’m stuck here in my place
You float from me
Into the sky
My voice has never felt so faint
You disappear
Through the same thick clouds
That hover my everyday
You’re nearly gone, and here I stay
Caught in a memory
I wake and pray for us again
Though I know, it will never be
We've all had those dreams that we wake up from and almost feel devastated because of how wonderful and how real the dream felt. We become lost in the memory that has since passed us by. For as often as we wake up and say to ourselves, "That was just a dream. That was just a dream." or "Thank God that was just a dream.", at other times, we wake up and say to ourselves, "Why did that have to be just a dream?" With so many of us, our dreams are so vivid yet, at the same time, impossible to describe. Or, in our dreams, we experience multiple sensations at the same time.
This was a dream that I had that I then put into song. It's about a past relationship. It's about a person who knows you better than anybody else, a person who knows exactly what you need and when you need it. In this particular dream, you are saying goodbye forever. You don't want to say goodbye, but you are accepting that this is a fact. You want to hold onto the moment as long as possible because you know this is the last time you will see the person. This is your last chance to make sense of the situation and to feel comfortable in what the two of you had.
It is a sad poem. It's a dream that you wake up from and wonder to yourself how you had something so wonderful and why you would have ever let it slip away.
Written in 2003
Copyright, The Poetry of Bryan Buser