To Give You More
Barley breathing today
And I’m watching us waste away
Isolation in here
And I almost even care
A façade I can wear
My skin I can cover up
But both will break away
If I’m a person I never was
To give you more
Is what I long for
But I give you only
What my soul allows of me
Through others we find
All that we leave behind
Through others we see
That we just weren’t meant to be
In the wake of this collapse
So hard to admit defeat
In this last attempt to fight
To recapture all that went right
To give you more
Is what I longed for
But now it’s just something
I hope you’ll one day find
Both an unspoken apology to a partner and a coming to terms acceptance of a relationship hanging onto its final threads. The speaker of this poem knows exactly what the person he is talking to wants but cannot give it to her. What she is asking for and what she needs is either outside his comfort zone or is something that he is unable to provide. He wishes that he could because of how much he cherishes her, but he has accepted that just is not going to happen.
Written in 2004
Copyright, The Poetry of Bryan Buser