Fading Away

I remember yesterday, but how it seems so far away
Living and loving while loving and living
But things have changed
The world has changed
People have changed
I have changed
Nothing remains the same…
Except for the past

I reminisce about yesterday 
I fear my tomorrow
But I dread today
I hate today
And I’ll hate tomorrow
But there is a dim candle in this cold, dark place
It provides just enough light for me to see
But the wick is so low
I see less and less with each passing second
What will I do when this candle melts away?

I want to live; I want to love
The hope for either is fading
My walls are collapsing around me
I try to hold them up, but they are so heavy
And I am tired; exhausted
And soon the walls will give way

I’m gasping for air, clutching for that rock
But I come up empty
What more can I do to grab your attention?
You know I suffer, yet you offer no aid
I won’t ask for help, and you know that
Yet you can easily see I’m not who I was

I want to live; I want to love
And I’m losing hope in both
I feel stranded in the ocean, ankles weighing five pounds oned day, ten the next
They are pulling me deeper
And I am tired
And soon I will sink away